[m4w] controlling the moment
Jan. 19th, 2004 04:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cthulhia
Yesterday's meditation was exhorting me to live in the moment.
(stop laughing.)
So, as I was mentally calculating when I'd be able to run off and write my journal entry, in lieu of say, enjoying the winding down of Arisia, I was sufficiently worried about the various and sundry snarky remarks I of all people would inevitably receive, due to my utter inability to live in the moment, that I was debating inwardly about whether I should just turn comments off...
Even if my own brain hadn't managed to point out this absurdity, well, there were plenty of convenient reality checks walking around. Some of them are even reading this!
Arisia was significantly more enjoyable this year. I wasn't overextended. I didn't have psychodramas among volunteers consume other support folks who then drove away some of the people who I hadn't been counting on but had been there for me taking up the slack up until that point. I avoided feeling abandoned at critical moments by not having critical moments.
Staying an extra night meant that none of Sunday was spent being spastic about check-out. I highly recommend such a solution when you can fit it into your budget.
Being part of the "Dead Dog" meant spending a lot of time with the remaining con guests, which makes you feel important, as long as you succeed in keeping them from getting on each other's nerves.
Serena (Mrs. Tim) Powers likes bacon more than I do. We definitely need to hang out more!
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Today's meditation is about control. The illusion of control is killing us.
I hope I know better.
Pride goeth before a fall. Ego is deadly.
Ugh.
(stop laughing.)
So, as I was mentally calculating when I'd be able to run off and write my journal entry, in lieu of say, enjoying the winding down of Arisia, I was sufficiently worried about the various and sundry snarky remarks I of all people would inevitably receive, due to my utter inability to live in the moment, that I was debating inwardly about whether I should just turn comments off...
Even if my own brain hadn't managed to point out this absurdity, well, there were plenty of convenient reality checks walking around. Some of them are even reading this!
Arisia was significantly more enjoyable this year. I wasn't overextended. I didn't have psychodramas among volunteers consume other support folks who then drove away some of the people who I hadn't been counting on but had been there for me taking up the slack up until that point. I avoided feeling abandoned at critical moments by not having critical moments.
Staying an extra night meant that none of Sunday was spent being spastic about check-out. I highly recommend such a solution when you can fit it into your budget.
Being part of the "Dead Dog" meant spending a lot of time with the remaining con guests, which makes you feel important, as long as you succeed in keeping them from getting on each other's nerves.
Serena (Mrs. Tim) Powers likes bacon more than I do. We definitely need to hang out more!
::
Today's meditation is about control. The illusion of control is killing us.
I hope I know better.
Pride goeth before a fall. Ego is deadly.
Ugh.
