[m4w] the anti-juggler?
Jan. 10th, 2004 12:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cthulhiaToday it's about juggling projects and the negativism that results.
My negativity is rarely a result of too much I absolutely have to do. Too many options, none essential nor more interesting than the others, and emotional death spirals that follow? Sure, that can cause a wee bit of negativity.
Today I did manage to get out of bed in time to do banking. Slept "raw" again. The tricks of doing this in a 60 degree house include: closing doors, smaller spaces don't take as long to warm up and retain heat longer; sleeping with a lit candle, which may just be psychology; and one of my first post-utica gifts to myself was a down comforter when I had the time to hunt for massive white sale discounts. (I am still seeking a featherbed.)
My toes were cozy by the time I woke up, and loath (is that correct,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
queue) to let me out of bed.
Nonetheless, I made it to the bank in time to deposit a month of cheques (the half workweeks made paycheques unimpressive, but, I actually got some money back from my alleged insurance company, and my Irish Catholic landlord gives a Christmas cheque to all his grandchildren, including the pizza fairy and our Jewish neighbor) which is enough for me to pay off the credit card this month. My actual month's spending was down, but I put the rest of my two front teeth on the card. My credit card bill hasn't been that high since... ok, the first part of that dental bill, but, prior to that, not since my trip to China. I'd just paid off the China debt when the dental debt got going, so... it's nice to be mostly in the clear.
I wish I could save more of it, but, current mental health needs require an expensive living situation change. I still have a(t least one) 401k somewhere, which apparently made money last quarter. I was extremely lucky in early 2000. My main 401k switched to a different broker or something. They reset it all away from tech stocks and into low-risk, low-gain stocks until I sent in some signed form by some quarter-change deadline I missed twice, which made me very unhappy with myself, and, then, suddenly, ecstatic.
Sometimes dropping the ball is fortunate.
My negativity is rarely a result of too much I absolutely have to do. Too many options, none essential nor more interesting than the others, and emotional death spirals that follow? Sure, that can cause a wee bit of negativity.
Today I did manage to get out of bed in time to do banking. Slept "raw" again. The tricks of doing this in a 60 degree house include: closing doors, smaller spaces don't take as long to warm up and retain heat longer; sleeping with a lit candle, which may just be psychology; and one of my first post-utica gifts to myself was a down comforter when I had the time to hunt for massive white sale discounts. (I am still seeking a featherbed.)
My toes were cozy by the time I woke up, and loath (is that correct,
queue) to let me out of bed. Nonetheless, I made it to the bank in time to deposit a month of cheques (the half workweeks made paycheques unimpressive, but, I actually got some money back from my alleged insurance company, and my Irish Catholic landlord gives a Christmas cheque to all his grandchildren, including the pizza fairy and our Jewish neighbor) which is enough for me to pay off the credit card this month. My actual month's spending was down, but I put the rest of my two front teeth on the card. My credit card bill hasn't been that high since... ok, the first part of that dental bill, but, prior to that, not since my trip to China. I'd just paid off the China debt when the dental debt got going, so... it's nice to be mostly in the clear.
I wish I could save more of it, but, current mental health needs require an expensive living situation change. I still have a(t least one) 401k somewhere, which apparently made money last quarter. I was extremely lucky in early 2000. My main 401k switched to a different broker or something. They reset it all away from tech stocks and into low-risk, low-gain stocks until I sent in some signed form by some quarter-change deadline I missed twice, which made me very unhappy with myself, and, then, suddenly, ecstatic.
Sometimes dropping the ball is fortunate.
