[RTO] what is your personal myth
Sep. 18th, 2003 09:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cthulhiaSBB mentions her "mythical awakening" upon encountering The Meeting on the Turret Stairs (1864) by Sir Frederick William Burton.
She exhorts us to rise above [nurture] and seek out your personal mythos. I guess... the belief system you follow even when going against the tide of your family/society, "your soul's prime directive"... she's a trekkie?
Most of us, she says, are too busy helping others to have time -- or the need -- for this sort of discovery. I guess I'm a selfish bastard then. Ok, I know it. There is an arguably altruistic fear of the impressionable helpless (children, pets) absorbing my neuroses. But, mostly a defense mechanism: fear of relying on others who can abandon me. I can't abandon me. If I could, I would.
So I've had plenty of time for these sorts of self-awareness journeys, (although I usually don't get far before falling into another pit of despair). The sort of inspiration she feels from that painting I've felt for a lot of things. I don't really have much of a hierarchy.
I long identified with Athena, as an ego saving throw against my own parthenos. Until that lost relevance. And even years earlier, when in Athens, I didn't come home with a statue of her, but with a replica of this.
Another big influence: "the great is the enemy of the good" quote (which I had archived with sucky, but my account there seems to have been cancelled... what the?) Although, my absorption of that quote is mostly, because there are great people in the world, and I am at best adequate, what's the fucking point?
And... beautiful stories for ugly children #12 (the one where DEATH gets BORED) This site will sell them to you for $16 an issue. How much do you love me? Not that much? No one does. (I "need" #1-9, #20-#28. I may order #6 myself, except that $16 is a lot for a non-collector like myself. Having a spare #12 isn't a bad plan either. I am so mad Piranha restructured before releasing the promised book.)
And, more commonly, the tao symbol: balance, fairness, cycles.
(o look! work! a distraction! yay!)
She exhorts us to rise above [nurture] and seek out your personal mythos. I guess... the belief system you follow even when going against the tide of your family/society, "your soul's prime directive"... she's a trekkie?
Most of us, she says, are too busy helping others to have time -- or the need -- for this sort of discovery. I guess I'm a selfish bastard then. Ok, I know it. There is an arguably altruistic fear of the impressionable helpless (children, pets) absorbing my neuroses. But, mostly a defense mechanism: fear of relying on others who can abandon me. I can't abandon me. If I could, I would.
So I've had plenty of time for these sorts of self-awareness journeys, (although I usually don't get far before falling into another pit of despair). The sort of inspiration she feels from that painting I've felt for a lot of things. I don't really have much of a hierarchy.
I long identified with Athena, as an ego saving throw against my own parthenos. Until that lost relevance. And even years earlier, when in Athens, I didn't come home with a statue of her, but with a replica of this.
Another big influence: "the great is the enemy of the good" quote (which I had archived with sucky, but my account there seems to have been cancelled... what the?) Although, my absorption of that quote is mostly, because there are great people in the world, and I am at best adequate, what's the fucking point?
And... beautiful stories for ugly children #12 (the one where DEATH gets BORED) This site will sell them to you for $16 an issue. How much do you love me? Not that much? No one does. (I "need" #1-9, #20-#28. I may order #6 myself, except that $16 is a lot for a non-collector like myself. Having a spare #12 isn't a bad plan either. I am so mad Piranha restructured before releasing the promised book.)
And, more commonly, the tao symbol: balance, fairness, cycles.
(o look! work! a distraction! yay!)
